I wanted you to return
even as a pillar of salt
but when I finally found you
you were already cold,
and the white sheet
above you was lighter
than any skin should be.
So I spoiled myself, climbed
in. Looted. Crushed my cheek in
to yours. It’s all true. My hands
blued into commas like anchors
cast in deep sea,
I was a wreck, I had to drown.